Dearest....
Why do I make remarks that often makes me feel like an alien on this planet? Okay, maybe that's a silly question considering some of the thoughts I often have... but still, that's no excuse!
Today, was one of those days where you come back from work half-dead, with every part of your body wanting a long rest, especially your mind (and soul).
I was giving a quick over view of my hectic day to S.M., being myself I admitted I wanted to sit somewhere and watch the moon and stars in the sky. "I don't want to be inside feeling closed by all the walls."
And that was my little aha moment even though S.M. didn't react in anyway but the cold reply clearly hinted to me: "You're tired so just go to bed!"
I don't wish for my point to be lost, the fact that I said I don't want to feel closed off between walls reflects something. Does it not?
So what if we sat in the garden in absolute silence and listening to the occasional sound of insects who come out after dark while seeing the moon and stars? So what if we went for walks under the moon? Seems like in today's world that's an absurd thing to do.
Anyhow, no moon or stars for me tonight. Finished off homework and now it is straight to bed for another long day tomorrow. But still, I wished I could spend half an hour alone outside walking, or just sitting and staring into the sky.
Good night
Saza -- so tired not sire if a single word makes any sense in this entry. Good Night!
Why do I make remarks that often makes me feel like an alien on this planet? Okay, maybe that's a silly question considering some of the thoughts I often have... but still, that's no excuse!
Today, was one of those days where you come back from work half-dead, with every part of your body wanting a long rest, especially your mind (and soul).
I was giving a quick over view of my hectic day to S.M., being myself I admitted I wanted to sit somewhere and watch the moon and stars in the sky. "I don't want to be inside feeling closed by all the walls."
And that was my little aha moment even though S.M. didn't react in anyway but the cold reply clearly hinted to me: "You're tired so just go to bed!"
I don't wish for my point to be lost, the fact that I said I don't want to feel closed off between walls reflects something. Does it not?
So what if we sat in the garden in absolute silence and listening to the occasional sound of insects who come out after dark while seeing the moon and stars? So what if we went for walks under the moon? Seems like in today's world that's an absurd thing to do.
Anyhow, no moon or stars for me tonight. Finished off homework and now it is straight to bed for another long day tomorrow. But still, I wished I could spend half an hour alone outside walking, or just sitting and staring into the sky.
Good night
Saza -- so tired not sire if a single word makes any sense in this entry. Good Night!
Saz,
ReplyDeletethe intellectual answer to your question probably has something to do with you being a TCK (Third Culture Kid). A more emotional answer is this: I think it sounds lovely and not alien at all to sit outside and enjoy the night. What better way to unwind? I would happily come stargazing with you.
I have come to realize watching the moon and stars is not every person's cup of tea! :)
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